rambling..nonsense

Some things require pondering over, really. One of them is, of course, proposals. Not just any sorts, but the sort that all girls wish for in their life, typically. Marriage proposals.

There is nothing much to ponder if you are a girl, proposed to, by your one and only prince charming, who had not only undoubtedly captured your heart, but also had manage the leash the hearts of your family. As he is the prince, therefore, of course, he would treat you like a princess, nothing less than that. His love will be reflected in every thing that he does, no matter how minuscule it might be to the lesser mortal. This proposal needs no pondering over. He is the one that would complete you as a person.

But then, what if you are now approaching a, say, crossroads? You have a prince, but he kinda lost his charm over you. Your heart often steers you towards the land of 'maybe, I should have..'. It's not so much as regrets but more to fantasizing, but with someone else. Ideally, you break loose totally, so as not to bring forth too much untruth and dishonest feelings in play. Since you garner not much courage yet, you carry on, having gotten use to this. What you should do then, if a proposal comes? I for one, would not accept it, yet. It would be hurtful, but then, since I cannot yet find the other courage, accepting would be an unwise step.

But if you get a proposal from one you those that you fantasize with, do you accept? Without a doubt, the proposer is real to you, and while the proposal might not be entirely proper, you were proposed to. Hmm.. deep in your heart, you feel like accepting, then hiding yourself from the universe that you in now. You know you are the betrayer and a whole trail of destruction will be brought upon if you nod in acceptance.

I'm rambling nonsense again, but really, I wish, someone could see this. Someone wise.