In about less then 3 hours time, this day is going to end. I have a very strong inclination that I would still kept waiting. For that call. And for that, I'm really disappointed.
I know that I do not even have the slightest of right to feel disappointed. It was my calling, my chosen path to push him away. And this is the first blow that I have to face with.
There is no chance of calling him, just communication via texting. I had waited long enough, I guess, before making my move. Soon, the coming of the end of this day will signal the beginning of a new phase in my life. I'm on my own, as I had wanted.
This is his cruel joke on me, not keeping in touch, for he once mentioned, he wanted me to think of him. Putting me on my toes, wondering, he said, would make me think of him. That was his strategy then. Perhaps this is his strategy now.
I'm not sure anymore, I feel to not want to wait, to lose my faith in dreaming up our future. Such a big world out there waiting for me to explore. The end of today will signify another new beginning, for me.
I know that I do not even have the slightest of right to feel disappointed. It was my calling, my chosen path to push him away. And this is the first blow that I have to face with.
There is no chance of calling him, just communication via texting. I had waited long enough, I guess, before making my move. Soon, the coming of the end of this day will signal the beginning of a new phase in my life. I'm on my own, as I had wanted.
This is his cruel joke on me, not keeping in touch, for he once mentioned, he wanted me to think of him. Putting me on my toes, wondering, he said, would make me think of him. That was his strategy then. Perhaps this is his strategy now.
I'm not sure anymore, I feel to not want to wait, to lose my faith in dreaming up our future. Such a big world out there waiting for me to explore. The end of today will signify another new beginning, for me.
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