I am currently reeling in the effects of caffeine in my body. It brings calming effect of sorts. I can feel myself emotionally stabilizing as the drug seeps into my blood stream, slowly. The trembling fingers are slowly lessening. This is the condition of an deprived addict recovering from the temporary the loss of control over her motors, after getting her daily shot of preferred substance.
I have long knew that I have an addiction problem. With coffee. I must have at least a cup in the morning before I start my day. Else, I will be groggy, my brain won't wake up and I will feel lethargic. By mid day, I will get a headache, will be awful to people, if I speak, and will feel as though I'm getting sick. I'll be the living dead.
Like all addicts, I will say that I can control this addiction. Like all addicts, I believe I can. But unlike most addicts, I have tried, successfully to cut down the intake of my coffee, daily. I need one cup per day, which is really much lesser than before. I used to drink almost 3-4 cups every working day, and 2 cups on off days.
I now most of the time consume only half cup of caffeine, to further lessen my dependence on it. Although I have not tried, I know I can quit, if I have too, but I choose not to, for now. I enjoy the smell and having that morning drink each day. It's my way of feeling alive, for another day.
I have long knew that I have an addiction problem. With coffee. I must have at least a cup in the morning before I start my day. Else, I will be groggy, my brain won't wake up and I will feel lethargic. By mid day, I will get a headache, will be awful to people, if I speak, and will feel as though I'm getting sick. I'll be the living dead.
Like all addicts, I will say that I can control this addiction. Like all addicts, I believe I can. But unlike most addicts, I have tried, successfully to cut down the intake of my coffee, daily. I need one cup per day, which is really much lesser than before. I used to drink almost 3-4 cups every working day, and 2 cups on off days.
I now most of the time consume only half cup of caffeine, to further lessen my dependence on it. Although I have not tried, I know I can quit, if I have too, but I choose not to, for now. I enjoy the smell and having that morning drink each day. It's my way of feeling alive, for another day.
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