Pining. That's what I might be doing, now, judging from my actions and reactions. Unconsciously, my mind is unable to let go of the fact that he has finally come to terms with my terms. As what I had asked, he will not wait any longer. Have faith, I had told him. I don't want to do it, because you want me to, but instead, I want to do it, because I want to do it, for me, and then for you. Have faith.
Yet, I am feeling a sense of emptiness inside of me. The idea that he had taken my word for it is leaving an empty feeling in me. I have not communicated to him since that day, but yet, I feel something in me is lost. The ice cold season is starting, this time unsure if spring will come.
Watching Kyle XY, perhaps what Declan said is true. Maybe Lori like the idea of him pining for her when they are not together any longer. She gets a little worked up when seeing him with another girl, a sign that he has moved on, or wants to move on. Maybe I'm like Lori at that moment.
Maybe in the remoteness of my mind, I had wished he would have gone against what I suggested to him, and be his stubborn self. Which meant keeping me in his mind, all the time. Missing me all the time. Love should not be about doing what's being asked, but what's you think might make your love happy and happier always.
I need to get adjusted to this fact, I guess. There won't be anymore pining coming from that guy, however I might remotely wish. It's unhealthy. I will need to adjust to accommodate this feeling of hollowness brewing in me, but I'll make it. In time. We both need to move on, seriously. I need to stop pining for him while he needs to stop waiting for me. We both need to move on while continue to have faith for what's the best for us.
I believe, faith will lead us to what we are looking for, our happiness. Each individual in this world has their own definition of happiness. We just need to know and not stop working towards achieving. Faith in being happy will lead to our happiness. Have faith and stop pining. Oh ya, not forgetting, courage.
Yet, I am feeling a sense of emptiness inside of me. The idea that he had taken my word for it is leaving an empty feeling in me. I have not communicated to him since that day, but yet, I feel something in me is lost. The ice cold season is starting, this time unsure if spring will come.
Watching Kyle XY, perhaps what Declan said is true. Maybe Lori like the idea of him pining for her when they are not together any longer. She gets a little worked up when seeing him with another girl, a sign that he has moved on, or wants to move on. Maybe I'm like Lori at that moment.
Maybe in the remoteness of my mind, I had wished he would have gone against what I suggested to him, and be his stubborn self. Which meant keeping me in his mind, all the time. Missing me all the time. Love should not be about doing what's being asked, but what's you think might make your love happy and happier always.
I need to get adjusted to this fact, I guess. There won't be anymore pining coming from that guy, however I might remotely wish. It's unhealthy. I will need to adjust to accommodate this feeling of hollowness brewing in me, but I'll make it. In time. We both need to move on, seriously. I need to stop pining for him while he needs to stop waiting for me. We both need to move on while continue to have faith for what's the best for us.
I believe, faith will lead us to what we are looking for, our happiness. Each individual in this world has their own definition of happiness. We just need to know and not stop working towards achieving. Faith in being happy will lead to our happiness. Have faith and stop pining. Oh ya, not forgetting, courage.
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