so be it, me

so be it,
sleep on!
so much about 'let's go!'
so much about 'sure!'

here i am,
waiting, suppressing,
my heads but wants to let go,
unable to contain my building anger!

sleep on!
as always!
why did i fall for it?
but again??!
i should have known better,
some people just don't change.

i want to fly,
somewhere far,
i take myself with me,
leave everything else behind.
i want to go.

here and now,
i am suffocating,
routines and familiarity,
i cannot breathe..

let me the courage,
i want to go,
pursue me, radiate me,
bring with me, one mind,
come back to world anew,
so be it?