M¥ thoughts continue to shape Mе®

I want to say that I have come to an awakening, one so simple yet so powerful, that I'm just plain stubborn and stupid not to give it a try. Imagine, getting an affirmation on something that you have only suspected all this while. You can only shake your head, the feeling of awe taking over for a moment. You then blink and get your thoughts racing back, trying to dig through the abundance haywire greycells for any sign that can be used as evidence. I did just that and then remembered one, posted here, not so long ago.

Was it a coincidence, I asked? Might be, if you do not believe. Yet, what is coincidence and what am I talking about? What is so worthwhile, that I would rummaged through my mind, turning it inside out, upside down, and vice versa, just to find a pointer, an evidence, to show it was nothing near coincidence.

I got a book thrust into my zone, quite a while ago. I took it, read it, but managed only a few pages. I did not quite get pass the quarter mark before I had to put it down, left it on the table, waiting to be returned. I had expected that I wouldn't have a chance to read it, as much as I wanted to. Then the powers to be had decided this gal will have her chance. And boy, was she nudged, hard!

This book says, your life is as what your thoughts are, irrelevant of negation, irrelevant of what others think of you. You literally shaped yourself, your environment, your lifestyle, your everything with your thinking, however unconsciously it may be. It was breathtaking to see that in print. My mind went racing, reaching to the pointed end, I can will anything, if I wanted it passionately enough.

I had thought of wanting to read the book, and this trip back, it was still there, laying, waiting for me to devour it. It was not returned to it's owner, which was surprising. Had it been returned, perhaps, this moment would not have come. The powers of the universe had decided to move into position to give me the chance of reading it. I believe, as I had wanted to read it so much.

A few postings ago, I had written about dreading being late to class, and ending up late. My thinking of being in that situation had, in fact, led to my state at moment. I had, unaware and carelessly, given signals to the powerful universe that of being late. So, the stars, the planets, or whatever it took, aligned, came forth, moved in, to realize this fear, this thought, and your truly, no matter how much she did not want it, was late.

It was my willing it to life, explains why I got results of flying colours during my secondary school period, why I undertook the particular course in university, why I did not do that well then, and how I reached here,something that should have been done five years back. I had long suspected it, that it were something like this, but never quite be able to string up the words, to correctly, accurately describe this suspicion. Then, here I was given. Unconsciously willed to be given.

It is my will, my passion, my thoughts, my feelings then which will be playing the cards of my future. If all is mine, from me, I must learn to be more aware of what I think, that I generate out, in thinking, in paper, in feeling. Unconsciousness should be trained to be conscious awareness. It it only a slow process, if I think it to be slow.

If I passionately pursue, then can I be a writer, successful, well-known, read and loved all over?
If I passionately pursue, can I be rich, living in abundance, in cash, in feelings, in experiences, forever accumulating more and more over the course of my life?
If I passionately pursue, can I be a good teacher, a successful educator, a counselor, a helping hand towards those in need?
If I passionately purse, can I travel around the world, visit and staying in as many countries as possible, savouring the cultures, to learn, to understand, to teach and be taught the limitless of human compassion and nature's gifts?
If I passionately pursue, can I get the jackpot prize of the TOTO now standing at 20MEGAringgit, so that I may live rich, rich, rich, rich and filthy rich by this month?

Our thoughts continues to shape us. My thoughts continue to shape me. My being, my existence. My future.