Is it abnormal not to only yearn for a stable life together, but also an unstable life together with that one person? My unfortunate condition of being the so-called right age to get hitched is seriously turning my life topsy-turvy!
For now, others are not just contented to let me live, as what I am living now, but also wants me to commit to them. Endless comings of the question 'when are you both getting married' or 'when's your turn is really turning the heat off for me'. Asked so innocently, perhaps, with the sincerest of trying to show interest and concern of my future, yet I am really not happy with it, not welcoming it. The unconscious pushes, maybe with their sincerest to help set the tone, is really backfiring, big time.
I yearn more than having a place to stay, having good in-laws, having happy close-knitted family, having a good guy looking over my shoulder, having a chauffeur, having grand wedding dinners, having things, of having. I long for time together, adventures together, activities together, talks together, love together, live together, doing together, planning together, going together, growing together, of together. For me, that what happiness together is suppose to be.
Put me at the stake, for not sharing the conventional thinking of your family of ready to wed, then burn me, not forgetting to burn rubber as well at that time. I'm guilty if so.
For now, others are not just contented to let me live, as what I am living now, but also wants me to commit to them. Endless comings of the question 'when are you both getting married' or 'when's your turn is really turning the heat off for me'. Asked so innocently, perhaps, with the sincerest of trying to show interest and concern of my future, yet I am really not happy with it, not welcoming it. The unconscious pushes, maybe with their sincerest to help set the tone, is really backfiring, big time.
I yearn more than having a place to stay, having good in-laws, having happy close-knitted family, having a good guy looking over my shoulder, having a chauffeur, having grand wedding dinners, having things, of having. I long for time together, adventures together, activities together, talks together, love together, live together, doing together, planning together, going together, growing together, of together. For me, that what happiness together is suppose to be.
Put me at the stake, for not sharing the conventional thinking of your family of ready to wed, then burn me, not forgetting to burn rubber as well at that time. I'm guilty if so.
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