then and now

My greatest fear for this past 3 months had come true. I awoke late today. When I came about, the clock was indicating quarter pass nine this morning. I was supposed to be in class by nine, ten pass nine to stretch it. Worse was today was the last day of class, and that my lecturer was starting a new topic today.

It was our own responsibility to turn up for class on time, if at all. No attendance were taken or recorded and you will not be penalize if you were late to class or decided not show up. Assignments of free of datelines. Even, if you decide to not complete them or drop out from the course, no one will reprimand you, or counsel you, or psycho you or force you to the 'correct' action. It was really up to you to behave and discipline yourself. The college management cares only for your payments. It not all bad, though. The lecturers do try to make you realize that there are much to gain if you complete your course.

This classroom rules and conducts were certainly different during my university days. Then, it was made compulsory for us to turn up for classes, at least coming in perhaps for 80% of classroom lectures. We had to complete the labs as well. Definitely, should today's embarrassing situation came up during then, I would certainly not have hesitated to just give up and would have went back to sleep. That is the stark contrast that I noticed with my behaviour towards learning then and now.

I pulled myself up, and quickly, rushed to class. By the time I got myself seated in class, lecturer was already almost done imparting her knowledge and opinions on the topic. Of course, latecomers would not be reprimanded. Late as I was, I just did not want to miss class and the lectures.

In all honesty, I was really proud of myself making the decision. It was unfortunately that I had to miss the beginning moments of learning, but at the same time, I was really happy with myself. Even when friends asked, I managed to not hide the truth but honestly admitted the actual reason. I did not regret turning up for class today, I gained tons still, although not fully. Really, it was the case of better late than never.

Perhaps, this is a sign of me growing, taking responsibilities for what I had decided on. After all, I signed up for this course myself. Now, for finishing up the assignments.