Maybe Too Much

When I was younger, I've never really thought of the kind of guy I would like to have as a partner. So when He came along, and my fluttered a little at that time, I accepted the person as he was, and still is.

As I grow older, I am given numerous chances to see new things, thankfully. I start conceive picture puzzle of what kind of guy I would love to be with. In the beginning, the outline is all that I can make out. A good person. I only thought that the person I want to be with has to be good in character. Colours that fill the outline was neglected. He fits till there.

Slowly, as I change in thoughts, get more exposure, discover new wonders, learn new facts, make new friends, be in new places, or just by the virtue of growing older and a little more confident, the picture puzzle gets more and more detailed. I feel like as though it's a jigsaw and I'm slowly finding the puzzle pieces that I want to fit in to complete the picture. Seeing the outline is not enough. I want a more detailed picture. The process is not fast, but it is not slow either. As I know more characters, more pieces find their way into making up my picture of the person I want to be with.

Always Independent, Uncharacteristically Romantic, Loving, Thinks of Me and Us always, Cooks, Cleans, Smart, A Talker and Yet a Listener, Thinks What I Think and More, Hardworker, Day Person, An Active Person, A Traveler at Heart and Mind, Wish to Build A Life with Me, Persistent to Get to Support Me. These are some of the shapes that I now think should build my dream partner. Should and wish for.

It is alot to ask for. Not many person have at least 90% of these qualities, let alone Guys. It is not easy for me to say this, but this is what I want now. I know I can give all these because I think these describe me, at least 90% of them.

I am clear of that now. I have change, I know. Maybe too much. Am I selfish?