Not too long ago, if I were to be asked, I will not agree to the notion that there is that special someone for each and everyone of us in this world. My stand at that time would be that love could be cultivated, and life could be shared together, if both parties tries hard enough to compromise and learn to love each other's idiosyncrasies. I was quite adamant on with that point, since I know myself well enough to say that I was like that.
Certainly, I did love Him at that moment. I learnt, and continuously learnt hard to know and discover as much about Him as possible. At times, I had to compromise on certain aspect of His being, upon learning something which did not measure up to me. Of course, this went two ways. He too, I am pretty sure, had been doing to the same. I would not say that it was difficult, but yet, at the same time, it was not that easy. Learning to love Him, I really had to make up my mind and make sure that I stuck with it. I made up my mind about six years ago. And after being together for eight years, I decided to call it quits.
I am cruel, I know, if it's just for doing so. Yet, I feel so liberated now. Finding and being with this person now, it's so easy, so simple, as compared when I was with Him. Wonderful Guy had put it simply, it feels so natural, doesn't it? Yes, I agree with that statement. Perhaps, this was the sole most important ingredient in our relationship that we had failed to discover all this while. I'm sorry for calling it quits now, but at least I didn't not let it be.
With this Wonderful Guy, I feel overwhelmed with so much emotions sometimes, even when not speaking. Chatting with him on everything, and nothing. We just almost the same thinking on how love should be, and how it is to be celebrated. It scares me sometimes, because I had never shared with him on how I feel how love should between two persons. Perhaps this is what made me feel so touched and overwhelmed at times when I am with him. I believe that he is the one that I am looking all this while.
Wonderful Guy, do you want to be my Violin-Playing-Goat?
Certainly, I did love Him at that moment. I learnt, and continuously learnt hard to know and discover as much about Him as possible. At times, I had to compromise on certain aspect of His being, upon learning something which did not measure up to me. Of course, this went two ways. He too, I am pretty sure, had been doing to the same. I would not say that it was difficult, but yet, at the same time, it was not that easy. Learning to love Him, I really had to make up my mind and make sure that I stuck with it. I made up my mind about six years ago. And after being together for eight years, I decided to call it quits.
I am cruel, I know, if it's just for doing so. Yet, I feel so liberated now. Finding and being with this person now, it's so easy, so simple, as compared when I was with Him. Wonderful Guy had put it simply, it feels so natural, doesn't it? Yes, I agree with that statement. Perhaps, this was the sole most important ingredient in our relationship that we had failed to discover all this while. I'm sorry for calling it quits now, but at least I didn't not let it be.
With this Wonderful Guy, I feel overwhelmed with so much emotions sometimes, even when not speaking. Chatting with him on everything, and nothing. We just almost the same thinking on how love should be, and how it is to be celebrated. It scares me sometimes, because I had never shared with him on how I feel how love should between two persons. Perhaps this is what made me feel so touched and overwhelmed at times when I am with him. I believe that he is the one that I am looking all this while.
Wonderful Guy, do you want to be my Violin-Playing-Goat?
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