Do I have to view everything from a positive angle?
Just late yesterday, really late, when I was packing up to leave from work, I saw a new timetable for me. It was put at the second tier of my shelf, which is, by the way, still barren of the complimentary in-tray which all other teachers have. At first, I thought that piece of paper was a stray paper which some other teachers had accidentally left in my shelf. Looking at the name and date, though, I realized it wasn't. It was for me.
A new timetable. Therefore a change in classroom hours. How nice! I studied that piece of paper. Gosh! I'm bewildered! What a dramatic change! Assisting in a class of notorious devils! Seriously! And assisting in three different subjects. Are they insane?!
While there had been an announcement to let us, all the teaching staff, there will be a revision of timetables since a teacher has decided to leave to continue his studies and then go into the government sector, I really did not expect that my timetable will be affected. It was not announce nor informed during the morning meeting by Ms Principal.
This new one comes as a surprise. I am not unwelcoming the opportunity of spending more time in class. However, I do question the motives, if there's any, of being given to assist in that particular class for 2 different lessons and having to be there during their homework time. After all, like I said, the notorious devils are but in that class. Even Ms Principal's words they do not listen to.
So, my question is, do I have to view everything positively? Is this new assignment a punishment, or an appreciation towards my capability, which I have none yet? Have they really no other teacher to take on that class, a more experience teacher? Are then, come one fine day, going to tell me that hey, you will be assign as their class teacher after this? Will they do that? It is not impossible for them to do that, I've learnt here.
Of course, from a positive angle, this would be the chance for me to prove my worth. Notorious as they come, I should do my best to carry out this new assignment, or perhaps, challenge, as best as I can. Yet, it is really very dishonest of me to say that in the back of my mind, the little screaming of, see, this is your punishment for making blunders, is not playing away, filling up the tunes in my brain.
Yet, please, I must believe in myself, I believe.
Just late yesterday, really late, when I was packing up to leave from work, I saw a new timetable for me. It was put at the second tier of my shelf, which is, by the way, still barren of the complimentary in-tray which all other teachers have. At first, I thought that piece of paper was a stray paper which some other teachers had accidentally left in my shelf. Looking at the name and date, though, I realized it wasn't. It was for me.
A new timetable. Therefore a change in classroom hours. How nice! I studied that piece of paper. Gosh! I'm bewildered! What a dramatic change! Assisting in a class of notorious devils! Seriously! And assisting in three different subjects. Are they insane?!
While there had been an announcement to let us, all the teaching staff, there will be a revision of timetables since a teacher has decided to leave to continue his studies and then go into the government sector, I really did not expect that my timetable will be affected. It was not announce nor informed during the morning meeting by Ms Principal.
This new one comes as a surprise. I am not unwelcoming the opportunity of spending more time in class. However, I do question the motives, if there's any, of being given to assist in that particular class for 2 different lessons and having to be there during their homework time. After all, like I said, the notorious devils are but in that class. Even Ms Principal's words they do not listen to.
So, my question is, do I have to view everything positively? Is this new assignment a punishment, or an appreciation towards my capability, which I have none yet? Have they really no other teacher to take on that class, a more experience teacher? Are then, come one fine day, going to tell me that hey, you will be assign as their class teacher after this? Will they do that? It is not impossible for them to do that, I've learnt here.
Of course, from a positive angle, this would be the chance for me to prove my worth. Notorious as they come, I should do my best to carry out this new assignment, or perhaps, challenge, as best as I can. Yet, it is really very dishonest of me to say that in the back of my mind, the little screaming of, see, this is your punishment for making blunders, is not playing away, filling up the tunes in my brain.
Yet, please, I must believe in myself, I believe.
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