Tous Les Visages De L'Amour

Tous Les Visages De L'Amour
by Charles Aznavour (France)-1975
Translated into English with the title "She" for the film "Notting Hill" in 1999

Toi, par tes mille et un attraits
Je ne sais jamais qui tu es
Tu changes si souvent de visage et d'aspect
Toi quelque soit ton âge et ton nom
Tu es un ange ou le démon
Quand pour moi tu prends tour à tour
Tous les visages de l'amour

Toi, si Dieu ne t'avait modelé
Il m'aurait fallu te créer
Pour donner à ma vie sa raison d'exister
Toi qui est ma joie et mon tourment
Tantôt femme et tantôt enfant
Tu offres à mon cœur chaque jour
Tous les visages de l'amour

Moi, je suis le feu qui grandit ou qui meure
Je suis le vent qui rugit ou qui pleure
Je suis la force ou la faiblesse
Moi, je pourrais défier le ciel et l'enfer
Je pourrais dompter la terre et la mer
Et réinventer la jeunesse

Toi, viens fais moi ce que tu veux
Un homme heureux ou malheureux
Un mot de toi je suis poussière ou je suis Dieu
Toi, sois mon espoir, sois mon destin
J'ai si peur de mes lendemains
Montre à mon âme sans secours
Tous les visages de l'amour
Toi ! tous les visages de l'amour


note :
This song was recommended by a friend, very dear to me.
Seemed that this is the original version of the favourite song 'She', from the most-favourite movie 'Notting Hill', sung by Elvis Costello.

A great lesson

School's OUT! Yes, let us all come together and say it out LOUD, SCHOOL'S OUT!!! Yippee! This week's Friday, or today, is the last day of school for this term. Phew! I made it, in one piece.

Today ending also signals a new beginning for a colleague, for she will be leaving us for another new posting soon. We had a small, mini do for her, nothing fancy. Just a little something to appreciate her being with us, Malaysians On the Mini Earth.

I liked that session. It really turned into a short get-to-know each other session. Bonding session. Really unexpected. We chatted, shared our experiences and traded tips and funny observations on children from our classes. Of course, they had more to share. I listened and learnt. We did not forget to eat.

Not harping on anything, but that was certainly a session of unity. Unity in spirit, unity in camaraderie, unity in differences. Thank you, teachers for a great lesson. Yours truly appreciate it, very much. Again, I was reminded, there's something good everything if we just focus on the positive. It is life's natural gift but our challenge to bring out the good in everything.

A very positive ending or beginning for the this school holidays, depending on how you view it. Most importantly, I am really glad for all the support that has been rendered to me, for without it, I would not have survived this term.

To Teacher M, all the best to you in your future undertakings! May you be successful and happy always, and never ever compromise your principles.

Snap! A to an Ex

I just heard a very shocking news. A colleague has become an EX-colleague with immediate effect! Just like that!

It was just this morning that I had a little chat with her during assembly. Yours truly found out that we both hail from the same hometown, although different places. She is well-loved by all the children, being a music teacher and bubbly by nature. There was a 'Celebrate Our Differences' session during assembly just now, and in a very appropriate ending, hugs for everyone from everyone. The children were hugging her, non-stop!

So, surprise surprise, when I got news that she was asked to hand in her resignation but with immediate effect. I cannot see any reasons strong enough that might have lead to this decision being taken by my head. A very baffling and intimidating news.

Many things has begun to swirl in my mind. What could she have done that requires such drastic action to be taken? I think she is a very successful in making children interested in her lessons and music as a whole. Yes, my mind wonders, wildly at that point.

Indeed, because I think that she and I are the same. We are all trying to adapt and adjust to a system to alien to us as best as we can. Sometimes, we do share our grievances among colleagues close enough. Surely, it is understood that sessions like that are just to be taken as therapy, a letting off steam session.

Anyhow, better check what I share and with whom I share them with in the future. Take care, gal! Continue to believe in your self and your principles.

hot days!

It's ridiculously hot these days! Even in the late night, warm breeze is blowing through my apartment windows. No cool air out from the blades of my fan, too. It is so hot that sometimes after I've taken my shower, I sweat immediately!

Like yesterday. Another blazing, hot day. At work in school, it was alright since the staffroom was equipped with air-conditioning. In fact, at one point of the day, I even had to take out my cardigan as the room was getting a tad too cold for me. In the late afternoon, right before dismissal time, it poured.

It poured and poured from the sky, giving me hope for a cooler evening, perfect ending to a Monday. So much that I think the dismissal process was little too wet for the comfort of everyone. Wet floors, umbrellas, squeezing about 200 students under the little foyer in the front.

No complaints from me. The rain decided to stop though, about half hour after making it's mark. It was still quite cooling though. Cooler breeze could be felt blowing gently for a while when I was heading towards my car. The land's temperature was definitely down at least by 2 degrees.

Yet, when the evening approached, I could feel the heat again. Slowly but surely, the warmth of the sun and the anger from the butchered earth is taking over, punishing all of us humans. The heat was terrible as the evening progressed into the night. I wished I could take a short shower before I sleep, but I daren't. Last time I did, I went down with cough and slight running nose for almost a week. Talk about irony, right?

So, what can I do? There's no point to fix air-conditioning in my room, definitely, and no shower before bed. Last night I slept with the fan blowing at full blast, warm air around the room, windows open, wide...Alas, my limitations in life during hot days!

What can I do?

What can I do now? I 've just MyPerformer to airport, so reluctantly letting him go. What can I do? He needs to go back to his life and work.
This is the third time, I am sending him away. My little performer, dubbed MyPerformer. It should be that as I get more practise, it should be easier to let go. Instead, it's getting more and more difficult. Each time, I am more reluctantly to let him go. My heart gets heavy and my brain finds it hard to focus during the drive back to my humble digs.
Why, oh why, is this happening? The more I spend time with him, the more I feel that this is what love could be, should be, and is. Each visit is short and sweet, but the parting is very heartbreaking, shattering, yet sweet and lovely, all rolled together.
When I am alone again, looking forward towards the next performance, the tendency to do nothing but wait is very strong. Wait only for the next performance. Everything else is done half heartedly. Vicious cycle that I am in now!
What can I do? Really, what can I do?

Right Footing

This was lifted from a weekly column in the local daily.
I thought it was well written, very rational, and hence should be shared. Things may not turn out as it was expected to, but we should always strive to make it end well, in good spirits and take life as it comes. In the end, the ending of something signals a new beginning, and we should always start something new on the right footing as much as we can, that is with lots of positive vibes, hopes, love and wishes.
Read on, then.

*****

DO you have a choice? Can you force her to stay because you are not willing to let her go? Sure, you made umpteen sacrifices and spent most of your hard-earned money to hold the relationship. Perhaps it wasn’t enough.

Your anger, disappointment and frustration are justified. What’s worse is the pain of losing the woman you expected to marry. But she has her reasons for breaking off. A long distance relationship is always difficult and she found someone during your absence. It does seem cold, calculating and callous on her part but perhaps love could not be sustained under stress.

Many relationships fail the test of time, trial and tribulations. Forcing the issue will only bring you more pain. You could talk to her again, try to move her heart. But if it proves futile, then accept it. You cannot do more when her mind has been made up and she will not be swayed. However, contain your rage and bitterness. Do not end a relationship in anger and hatred because you suffer the destructive consequences.

If you love someone so much, allow her to go with good memories and peace in her heart. Forgive so that you, too, can soon find your own fulfilment and happiness.

Reference :
Original article here

Speak, I shall

I will be dragging the guts out of me and talk to my principal on the hanging issue in my head. Yes, it will be at least on one issue. I have thought about it, and have up my mind that I don't want to be in-charge of that lesson. It's not an interest for me, let alone a passion.

What are the implications of doing such? I've yet to find out, but I do hear that if I'm unlucky enough to get to the bad side of her, it will be forever etch in her mind. I am a goner, definitely, then.

But really, it's a no-way to gardening. While nature's is a blessing and needs understanding and appreciation from all of us so that it may grow and thrive, I have no interest nor inclination towards gardening and planting. In fact, it is a dirty activity, at least from my point of view.

Since I have already such views of this lesson, I really cannot believe how I can provide good service to the children in lines of educating them and instilling the knowledge and interesting upholding good attitude towards plants and such, in gardening. See, I am pretty sure gardening goes a much longer way than just planting, but in my mind, nothing comes except planting and getting and being dirty. I do not see what gardening is all about. It's just a dirty and unhygienic activity for me!

I am really sorry, Ms Principal. This is one area which I do not think that I would not mind taking. I do and that's the honest feeling from me. Like you always stressed, should we have anything that we want to voice out, better be it to you rather than going around gossiping. So, I've made my mind, I don't think that I want to take up this challenge. I wish to back down.

It's not about the assigned classes, really. It's really the lesson. Gardening, it's like dreaded walk to hell, for me. Gardening, but I really wish not to give a negative foundation to the young, bright minds. Gardening, just not my cup of tea, Ms Principal.

Please do not take in a bad way. I really do not want to cause much troubles to you but really, this is going to bug me, if I have to take it. It would not be fair to you, me, and most importantly the children and the lesson.

Speak, I shall but with much hopes that you will understand and make the necessary arrangements. It is really sad, if I need to consider tendering my resignation letter, due to this. Thank you.

Postive view, must I?

Do I have to view everything from a positive angle?

Just late yesterday, really late, when I was packing up to leave from work, I saw a new timetable for me. It was put at the second tier of my shelf, which is, by the way, still barren of the complimentary in-tray which all other teachers have. At first, I thought that piece of paper was a stray paper which some other teachers had accidentally left in my shelf. Looking at the name and date, though, I realized it wasn't. It was for me.

A new timetable. Therefore a change in classroom hours. How nice! I studied that piece of paper. Gosh! I'm bewildered! What a dramatic change! Assisting in a class of notorious devils! Seriously! And assisting in three different subjects. Are they insane?!

While there had been an announcement to let us, all the teaching staff, there will be a revision of timetables since a teacher has decided to leave to continue his studies and then go into the government sector, I really did not expect that my timetable will be affected. It was not announce nor informed during the morning meeting by Ms Principal.

This new one comes as a surprise. I am not unwelcoming the opportunity of spending more time in class. However, I do question the motives, if there's any, of being given to assist in that particular class for 2 different lessons and having to be there during their homework time. After all, like I said, the notorious devils are but in that class. Even Ms Principal's words they do not listen to.

So, my question is, do I have to view everything positively? Is this new assignment a punishment, or an appreciation towards my capability, which I have none yet? Have they really no other teacher to take on that class, a more experience teacher? Are then, come one fine day, going to tell me that hey, you will be assign as their class teacher after this? Will they do that? It is not impossible for them to do that, I've learnt here.

Of course, from a positive angle, this would be the chance for me to prove my worth. Notorious as they come, I should do my best to carry out this new assignment, or perhaps, challenge, as best as I can. Yet, it is really very dishonest of me to say that in the back of my mind, the little screaming of, see, this is your punishment for making blunders, is not playing away, filling up the tunes in my brain.

Yet, please, I must believe in myself, I believe.