It's really wonderful to be able to lift up your spirits, on your own. Half the battle would have been won!
This morning, again, I had a very tough time pulling myself off my bed. The snooze was really fully utilized, before I actually thought, I did not want to not be able to enjoy daily morning dosage of a cup of coffee. With that thought, I managed to get up and get going.
Yet, I could feel a sort of feeling of dread enveloping over me. I know where that feeling is coming from. As of yesterday, I had officially started my new assignment as a teacher. While I am really in wanting of this assignment, this change has made me feel a little impact in myself.
It's like the first day at a new job, you are very conscious of yourself and want to do your best to adapt as fast as you can, so that you can learn and then contribute. Having said that, although I know most of the teachers, though not personally, I feel like an intrusion to their space. Furthermore, I had already miss being my with colleagues at the front desk, and miss having an access to a personal computer. These changes, I have to bear and learn to cope, I know.
So, this morning, choosing the blouse for the day, my eyes came across my still un-worn black blouse. A thought crossed my mind, why not wear it next week, something new and nice to look forward to.
The dreadful feeling was gone almost instantaneously! Almost immediately, I felt a feeling of happiness coming over me. I could focus on what I have to do, what I want to do for the day, when and how I should go about it! How wonderful to feel this way so early in the morning, instead of being the prisoner of negative vibes.
So, there you are, the reason of this post being here. To celebrate and commemorate, how fickle and simple the human mind can be. Yet, to acknowledge how fickle and simple mindedness are sometimes really necessary and to our advantage. Half my battle for the day has been won. And with just a simple thing such like this. Congratulations to me!
To my ping(squared) never really thought that I would really feel this, but, I miss being with you guys down front. And it's just into the second day! It's really lonely here, although there are many persons here, it's really lonely. Please, hopefully, you guys miss my presence there, too. Take care and wish us all the best!
This morning, again, I had a very tough time pulling myself off my bed. The snooze was really fully utilized, before I actually thought, I did not want to not be able to enjoy daily morning dosage of a cup of coffee. With that thought, I managed to get up and get going.
Yet, I could feel a sort of feeling of dread enveloping over me. I know where that feeling is coming from. As of yesterday, I had officially started my new assignment as a teacher. While I am really in wanting of this assignment, this change has made me feel a little impact in myself.
It's like the first day at a new job, you are very conscious of yourself and want to do your best to adapt as fast as you can, so that you can learn and then contribute. Having said that, although I know most of the teachers, though not personally, I feel like an intrusion to their space. Furthermore, I had already miss being my with colleagues at the front desk, and miss having an access to a personal computer. These changes, I have to bear and learn to cope, I know.
So, this morning, choosing the blouse for the day, my eyes came across my still un-worn black blouse. A thought crossed my mind, why not wear it next week, something new and nice to look forward to.
The dreadful feeling was gone almost instantaneously! Almost immediately, I felt a feeling of happiness coming over me. I could focus on what I have to do, what I want to do for the day, when and how I should go about it! How wonderful to feel this way so early in the morning, instead of being the prisoner of negative vibes.
So, there you are, the reason of this post being here. To celebrate and commemorate, how fickle and simple the human mind can be. Yet, to acknowledge how fickle and simple mindedness are sometimes really necessary and to our advantage. Half my battle for the day has been won. And with just a simple thing such like this. Congratulations to me!
To my ping(squared) never really thought that I would really feel this, but, I miss being with you guys down front. And it's just into the second day! It's really lonely here, although there are many persons here, it's really lonely. Please, hopefully, you guys miss my presence there, too. Take care and wish us all the best!
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