:: key.my ::

::

a Drop of Love,
a Love of Life,
a Life of Hope,
a Hope of Unity.

a Unity of Dreams,
a Dream of Bliss,
a Bliss of Forever,
a Forever of Eternity.

::

No more Excuses!!!!

Oh, must scold scold myself to the max! I foresee that I will be unable to meet the dateline which I've set for myself this month! Argggghhhhhh!!! Once again, my indiscipline self has cause my future!

I am trying to push myself to start my amendments on my assignments. My certification depends on them. My original target of obtaining it had to shelve back a couple months since the lecturers did not get back to on time. Therefore, until the after the CNY break, I've yet to hear anything from them, let alone get my diploma.

Right now, the ball's back in my court. The college had managed to get the new set of lecturers to help check the first draft of my assignments and after a series of not so frustrating follow ups and pushes from me, they had finally returned my assignments, around mid of last month.

I had then, decided to set a new target for myself, which was to get them ready for submission by the end of this month, since I knew I couldn't possibly make it for the end of last month's dateline.

That was then. Look at me now! Look at where I am now. No progress!!!! I feel like I want to beat myself flat! The dateline is really just a knock away, and where am I now? Nothing done, since my assignments were returned! Ok, perhaps just a little checking done, but yet, I could say that is like nothing compared to the sheer amount of what still needs to be done, at this stage.

I still have to revise the softcopy, do formatting and coordinating, have them printed out, bind and stop by the college to submit them! In the long progress line in the gantt chart, I have just like moved only a milimeter from my original point! How disappointing!

I have no one else to blame but myself. Beat no one else but me! Scold no one else but myself! Doing everything else but the very thing that I needed to do! Excuses abundance, never the push! Stop doing that! Must stop being like this. My future depends on myself being and staying discipline.

Arrrgggggghhhhh, no more excuses!!!!

science surprise!

The expression on her face surprised me slightly. I had not expected that kind of look from her. She had come into the class to let me know that the children need to be back in their class for their next lesson. The clock on the wall had already passed noon by a couple of minutes, a clear sign that I was already late for my next relief class.

Seeing her at the door, I asked if she needed the workbooks collected. She nodded, but before I could proceed, she asked if they had finished the given work. That was when she gave me her surprised look when I answered in positive affirmation to her question. I quickly let her know that I merely had them finished up their work, but that did not necessarily mean that they had them all correctly done. Again, she nodded, indicating she understood the message I had wanted to put across.

One by one, the children passed up their workbooks to her before going out of the lab. After all of them had left the lab, it was my turn to hand in their answer scripts, collected in the beginning of the class, to her. It was her instructions, to have their respective answer scripts torn off their workbooks and handed to me, after having written their names and class on the top.

Well, the slight surprise on her expression left me a feeling self-achievement. I am not sure if I am entitled to feel that way, but personally, I felt wonderful that I managed to complete the task that I was handed. I am not sure what was the expectation from that group of children. I have to say, though, they were certainly a bunch of playful, smart mouth, angst-ridden, naughty and talkative 12-year-olds. Really, all those that I expected from a group of overly-pampered children.

Thanks to them, though, for their cooperation in finishing up their work on time. Sincerely, I did hope that they did okay and that they tried to their best ability to the questions. After all, it's just science, and the questions were bilingual!

:: edelweiss ::

::

Edelweiss, Edelweiss,
Every morning you greet me,
Small and white, clean and bright,
You look happy to meet me.

Blossom of snow may you bloom and grow,
Bloom and grow forever,
Edelweiss, Edelweiss,
Bless my homeland forever.

::

my priority..?

I saw a quote today, from a friend's personal status. Friend posted, "if you want to know a person's priorities, just look at how they use their time".

Can that be true, I wonder. Because if that is so, then I am really a gone case! Anyone who sees me now will think that I'm crazy to devote so much of my time to a person.

Each day is spend thinking how I may make this guy happy, when can I meet up with him again, what are the things that he likes, who are the personalities whom he dislikes, and more.

Each cooking endeavour is made out to that I may learn new things to impress him when I see him next. Sticking true to the saying, practise makes perfect, hence practising now with all the available guinea pigs around, so that when the time comes, I am at least a little above experimenting.

So, I am a gone case, right now, ain't I? Using my time, the majority of my spare time for him. In other words saying that he is my priority? I guess the question should be is he worth being made my priority? Think fast, now, and hard!

:: myDearest ::

Good morning, myDearest!

It's a lonely cool morning and here I am, sitting in front of my pc, typing out this email to you. Back to the routine life of staying here, alone with no myDearest by my side. It's alrite though since yours truly here has come to accept that this how life would be for us, at least for now. This time around it's even easier. It's like flipping a switch, switch back to routine normal mode. Hahaa..kidding!

Yes, I feel it's easier, this morning than before. Perhaps might be due to the fact that this the second time around of this arrangement? Perhaps, might be due to the fact that we will be together again, in about couple weeks time. It's doesn't matter. I'm glad it's easier.

No worries though, myDearest, yours truly here still misses you and think of you constantly. Yes, the best would being together forever always, but since that is not so possible now, like you have said over and over again, what we can do is to do our best to work towards a better future, together. I like that, very much, and thinking of that makes me calm. So, while I am missing you right now, it's still managable..hahaha..

Right now, I am just hoping that today will be a good start to your week. Wishing that everything will be smooth for you at work and also there. I know myDearest is surely to make it, but do hope that the others there will be supportive of your work, and not create anymore unnecessary headache for myDearest. Have a wonderful Monday to start a great week ahead!

Remember always, 你是我最爱的! Now I believe, from the depths of my heart and mind. Thank you so much for a wonderful week, once again. Hope you had a good and relaxing holiday as well. You deserved it!

with love, forever,
~jsb~

p/s : nicknames have been changed to protect the privacy of the individuals.

你是我最爱的, always forever!

你是我最爱的

to breath these words tenderly,
right into the ears of the loved one,
warm breath to open the soul,
sweet love to guide into the heart.

find the one to say it to,
create the opportunity, not the excuse,
we should only have but one chance,
to say it, tenderly with sweet honesty.

grab the chance however remote,
ignore the excuses to avoid regrets,
be brave to carve out your path,
你是我最爱的, always and forever!

Oh, Thank you!

The day has finally arrived!
I shall always remember this day, as clearly as I could, as one of those days which will change the course of my life, tremendously.
I've finally invested in an alloy metal of 75%!
Something that I didn't think that I would be doing, yet I did it.
Whole-heartedly!

I wanted to do it and had done it.
I really felt wonderful doing it.
Never really did think that this day would come for me.
The want to do it and then to see the gladness in the eyes of the recipient was really touching.
Overwhelmed, simply, with joy, happiness, and love, forever.

Thank you, simply, for the acceptance and wanting.
Thank you, simply, for the love, kindness, devotion and trust.
Oh, Thank you, simply!

A good Friday

With Good Friday looming just around the corner, I cannot but help feeling ecstatic! It's a great feeling to be reeling in.

I'm not a Christian so the religious significance of that day is not that much of importance to me. However, the majority in my school are Christians, especially the big players. Hence, tomorrow has been chosen as a holiday, which in other words is saying that today is the last day of work for the week! Yippee!!!! And I only have 2 periods to follow today!

More importantly, tomorrow is going to be A good friday to me. Wonderful Guy had made prior arrangements to touch down, here at home, tomorrow evening! Even though I would have the whole day to spend, I'm not complaining, for in less than 48 hours, we shall be re-united again!

While I'm very happy, it's only fair to say, waiting for someone, or something, is really something everyone should experience. A negative thinker will see it as a torturing ordeal to go through, something that might break the heart and kill the soul. On the contrary, a positive mind will see this as an opportunity to meet after a while has passed. And shall not waste time but instead planning how to best spend the time together once they meet.

Turning each moment apart into something fruitful. Some might even go the extra mile in saying the time apart has but only managed to make their relationship stronger, for the understanding and the patience developed during this period of time is really testing for both of them.

I'm sway in between both. Sometimes, I feel rotten and torturous, while sometimes, I feel the opposite, that this is but a challenge. Most of the time, I am in the positive. Today, I'm extremely positive. Certainly, A good friday to me! Thank you, all!

Get Serious, again!

Do not be afraid of what we cannot see, that is the future. Put our mind into what we want to achieve, get serious about achieving it, and we will find the way, one way or the other.

My problem lies with me always making excuses for myself. Always, great plans and interesting ideas hatch in my mind. Really, great passionate ones. When it comes to turning them into successful reality, I always falter, either at the starting point, or never seeing them to completion. My vice, procrastination and making excuses.

When I first started with this organization, I had the opportunity to be part of a training. The speaker, one very motivated lady and a visionary, had shared a phrase which got stuck in my head at that time. Get serious, she had said. Whatever we wanted to do, we must get serious about doing it.

At that time, being aware of that phrase really changed my life. I was more focus in what I wanted and went on to get them done. The feeling of intimidation did not stop me, but instead, I learnt to get around them, finding new ways and options which I may go about overcoming those adversaries of mine. Really, that month and the next were really an achieve of sorts for me. I did what I had to do, though not necessarily welcomed and positive actions.

A few months had slipped by from that moment. I have to admit, that one phrase which had profound impact on me, had gradually been shelved to the back of my mind. Being sucked in by the busyness of daily work, personal life, family matters and day dreams, it slowly got blurry and somehow, I had forgotten about it. Forgot about that phrase, Get Serious.

I am glad, I am remembering it now, once again. Awareness of it's importance, relevance and application in our life helps. I must not forget it, again. It is a fundamental way to lead our lives. It is a very basic and straightforward way to lead our lives. If we have dreams, and we want to achieve them, it is really important that we Get Serious about achieving them.

Only we can help ourselves. Likewise, only I can help myself. I need to stop scaring myself, stop making excuses, Get Serious, once again, and never forget!

so many perhaps..

Perhaps, I should have taken a longer breather.
Perhaps, I should not have accepted the proposal.
Perhaps, I am too just rash, unadaptable, and not understanding enough.
Perhaps, I am just too moody.
Perhaps, I just am letting my behaviour take control of me, an excuse.
Perhaps, I have not put the history completely behind.
Perhaps, I should not have tempted fate.
Perhaps, I should not expect everything from him.
Perhaps, I should learn to be more independent of him.
Perhaps, I should not be just who I am, but continuously strive to improve.
Perhaps, I should not let my emotions govern me too much.
Perhaps, I should take a new hobby.
Perhaps, I should more time to invest in growing myself, mentally and emotionally.
Perhaps, I just not just say, I am who I am.

What can I do?? These are just a tiny portion of what I should do. Time is really not waiting for me any longer. To be at my age, but still behaving like how I did, always, is certainly a worrying trend. My perhaps need answers.

But how to I do go about them? How do I get enlightened? Perhaps, I need a guidance light, to shine, to clear up, to show, to light up the end of this big yet winding tunnel. No!No! A winding tunnel reveals not the end of the tunnel to it's wanderer. I need something else, reflectors along the way to reflect the light at the end of the tunnel, so that I can see all along the way. My reward for threading the path, perhaps!

- lazy day -

Lazy day, today is!
Respected not, the alarm,
Wasted so, the morning shine,
Chase now, the late sun,
Don't go, just yet,
I want you, still!

Lazy day, today would be!
Sit here, not moved yet,
Head empty, not filled yet,
Focus failure, no target yet,
Pushing hard, a day fruitful,
I want not to waste!

Lazy day, today mustn't be!
Good riddance, dust and dirt,
Out now, jeans not skirt,
Hang loose, be a flirt,
Laugh, enjoy, look see,
I want, relax and unwind!

Self-Indulgence over the Weekend

This weekend is for celebration! Since the day is almost coming to a close, let me continue to list down more of the celebrated moments of this weekend.


Sixth Celebration : Swim! Taking a peek at the pool in the evening, that group of children which I labeled inconsiderate was not there! I'm so happy! I quickly went up again to get change and off to the pool! Nice relaxing swim, almost 20 laps today...Next time..Haha!

Seven Celebration : TV dinner! Yes, today I took dinner with the tele! It has been a long time since I did that here. Normally, dinner would be taken in the room in front my pc. Of course, bad weather and no one to chat with were the contributing factors too. But who cares! Wonderful dinner, too!

Eight Celebration : Eavesdropping! I eavesdropped on a conversation which I should not, but want to! Hehe..a conversation that I knew that I could not understand. Yet, I just wanted to, and was allowed to! Eh, wouldn't that meant I'm listening, not eavesdropping, since I got permission?! Haha!

Ninth Celebration : Iron clothes & hang curtains! Ironed my clothes, all of them and my room curtains are back up. Yippee! Done with all my housework for the week! Good job, gal! Now to hang loose, for the remaining weekend!

Tenth Celebration : Warm water! Exercised restraint on myself and am now having warm water, instead of hot drink! What, you said. Miracle, I say! I'm so proud that I am able to resist the urge to make either tea or coffee. So glad. Warm water is a more appropriate choice for me at this moment, since I had already downed 2 cups of coffee earlier today. A much healthier choice. Congratulations on self restraint!

Eleventh Celebration : Skype time, again! My sleeping time skype moment is back and on, today! So glad, so happy, so ecstatic, so, so sweet.... I heart you, very much, and you know that! Can't wait to see you again!

Twelveth Celebration : Post! I posted this weekend! Again, I'm so proud of myself. No procrastination, no excuses, just do it! Write everything and anything, that's the spirit! After all, writing is 99% about practice, 1% talent, don't you think so?

As I was typing all of the above, I realized, to label all these as celebration aren't accurate. It is more apt to give them a label of 'Self-Indulgence over the Weekend'. Don't you think so?

Happy weekend, once again, gal! Stay safe, stay happy, stay punctual, get serious!

weekend celebrations!

The weekend is here! I cannot remember, but I think this might be my first weekend alone, here. And I'm celebrating it!

I guess that I better get use to living alone, during weekends. Going back each weekend is not no longer an option, as doing that would really eat into my pockets. So, when my housemate decides to go back for those weekends which I don't, I will be here alone. Like this weekend. So, celebrate it, that's what I have been doing.


First Celebration : Wake up late! This girl decided to sleep in this morning. Only a little after 8am did she wake up. Oh yes, that's late, way after her alarm, which started ringing at 0650..Hahaha..too lazy!

Second Celebration : Read before washing up! Had continued reading my book, which I started yesterday afternoon, before even washing up for the morning! Hahaha..my mouth was busy gobbling up breakfast of bread and coffee, while my eyes were devouring the pages of the love story! Relaxing, man!

Third Celebration : Wash my curtains and floor rags! Decided to go crazy and wash my curtains. Nothing wrong with that, you might think, but hey, I don't have the luxury of using the washing machine! Crazy me but I'm glad! Getting freshly washed curtains tonight and clean rags, hopefully tomorrow!

Fourth Celebration : Wonderfully delicious home-cooked lunch! Haha..What a wonderful day! My treat for my weekend alone is to cook prawns. Experimented cooking prawns, meat slices and some pieces of capsicums with loads of cili powder (in an attempt to make something similiar like sambal udang) in some lime juice turned out wonderfully, even I was surprised! Tasted so yummy!

Fifth Celebration : Nap time! Nap wasn't in my agenda today. Wanted to be a good girl and avoid napping in the afternoon. No apparent reason. Guess gave in to the combination of nice after the rain weather, tummy filled to the brim with good lumch, and tiredness of doing housework. Best part was, here I am, awake, right after the half hour nap! No stealing time! Congratulations, girl!


Only half the day gone, and yet already so many celebrations! I feel so motivated...This has been a good, productive day so far, and I intend to keep the momentum going as long as I can! Continue with planning more ways to celebrate the weekend, happily alone!

Inconsiderate

How inconsiderate some people can be! Very irritating to come across people like when you are very motivated.

I had wanted to swim today, having postpone my date with the pool for the past 2 days. Furthermore, coming home early was another push for me to fully utilize my time and myself. I am in progress to get fit and on diet. So naturally, with the pool so conveniently located in this apartment unit, swimming is the first choice, if not walking.

Hence, with the grey skies looming above, I had thought that I should not miss the opportunity. Blaming the weather for the misses in swimming is just too convenient since now is the rainy season. So, my motivated-self decided today, I must go before it starts to pour.

I changed and went down, all done by 5. Walking towards the pool, I did hear children playing in the pool. Voices told me that there were quite a number of them. I suspected they must the same group of children who plays there almost each time I past by. Yes, I was right. The same group of children, playing about in the pool and it's surrounding.

I had thought it was alright. The pool's big enough to accommodate all of us. So, undeterred, I went it. They were outside of the pool, playing a game of catch, I presume. I swam, at the side of the pool.

Barely completing a lap, I noticed that some of them using the pool to like get away from being caught by their friend. I was appalled! After running barefooted outside the pool, they just conveniently dipped in! Then, there was the thing of not giving way. I was swimming laps, they were walking around in the pool. Do let me past when I was coming, but no. They instead forced me to stop, and divert my course!

Gosh, how inconsiderate people can be! Kids or not. Wonder why our children of such character? Where's the problem, what's the best solution? Sigh, for the our future generation, so bleak..Shudder at this thought!

not yet 1600 and I'm posting!

I'm back home, posting this! And it's not after 1600 yet. A week ago, exhausted me would be heading home only after 1600. Today, my principal announced that all teachers are allowed to go home at 1300. So, here I am, at home, that too after hanging around in school for a while.

It's so different! I'm full of energy now, feeling so motivated. I think after all the browsing and reading news and all, I will do a little studying. Yes, I need to catch on my studying, brush up my English, especially in speaking. It's really, corrupted.

If it had been announced earlier, I guess that right now, I will be on my way back to my home sweet home, historical city. I would have packed all the necessary things and also those things that I would like to bring back, load them all in the car. Once I am done for the day, it would be straight back home.

Unfortunately, since it was made known only this morning, I've made up my mind to stay put here this weekend. Planning to get some studying, cleaning up, washing, and clearing done this weekend. Heading home only next weekend, together with Wonderful Guy. Yes, that Wonderful Guy will be home next weekend! So, I must get things moving and gone this weekend.

So here I am, posting while sipping a cup of coffee, while my former team members are there slogging away in the front office. I felt kinda bad to leave them like that, yet, I've moved my cheese else where. Change is inevitable, adaptable is viable. Speedy recovery, me, you, and all. Happy weekend!

1st Department Meet

Yesterday, I was at the privilege to attend my very first department meeting. Certainly, it was an eye-opener. I never been to such meetings before, and didn't know what to expect. My initial impression was that it would be something like my clubs meeting when I was in secondary school.

Indeed, it certainly wasn't anything close to that. Those meetings were more liberal and more open. Ideas were welcomed and duration was shorter. New joiners had the benefit of being brief to the history or background of clubs.

It was very little of that, and more like a meeting to handout jobs and responsibilities. It was humourous and open, sure, yet I think it was not that open. Like I said, all the duties were there already, the PICs and activities had already been allocated. It was the matter of throwing them to us. Ideas were welcome, but not all. Perhaps some were set activities. Should be. Must be.

I have to admit, though. I was more concentrated seeing how my Head conducted the meeting. I really felt like she was addressing to her class. It was really a good lesson in class handling! I like! Thank you, Head, although I know that wasn't what she intended, but I love the free lesson, undoubtedly! You were really good, and are good! Wish I would have more chances to observe you, perhaps in a real class. That will just be marvellous!

Aside, I was still grateful. This was really a first step towards joining the teaching world. It might not be as liberating as I thought it would be or a little more productive, yet, if this what I have to endure and learn and catch up and get use to, I will. Perhaps, that being the very first of my meetings in this line, I was really feeling more dazed and trying to make sense of all the proceedings, how things work, which things were suppose to be done, which things were not suppose to be done. I hope so.

So, have this reversed my decision on being a teacher? No, helped me opened my eyes and ears a little more.

SFGTD box

I got this in my mailbox today. Thought I'd post it here, to share with the web. Meaningful, it's but for you to decide.

To : YOU
Date : TODAY
From : GOD
Subject : YOURSELF
Reference : LIFE

This is God. Today I will be handling all of your problems for you. I do not need your help. So, have a nice day. I love you. And, remember...If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do not attempt to resolve it yourself! Kindly put it in the SFGTD (Something For God To Do) box. I will get to it in MY TIME. All situations will be resolved, but in My time, not yours. Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold onto it by worrying about it. Instead, focus on all the wonderful things that are present in your life now... Should you decide to send this a friend, Thank you. You may have touched their life in ways you will never know!

Now, you have a nice day.
God

Much needed lunch date

It was a good lunch date. One that was overdue but needed, extremely. Yes, today's lunch was much needed by both my date and I. We just needed each others company. The feeling of familiarity and understanding.

The last I ate with her, was my last day as an administrator. Then, we somehow managed to have our lunch together. Then, it was like a lunch to note that the impending change would be inevitable. I'm moving office, while she's staying, with new colleague.

Today, lunch had been more like a pouring-out session. Me, the new bewildered teacher, while she, the new target of barrages of gossips and criticism. She doesn't like her situation now. She 's not complaining, but merely just needed an avenue to spill out what was going in her mind. Keeping it bottled up inside would not have been a good idea. Yours truly tried her best to be a good listener. Tried but failed, as I had been in the same situation as she had, except that I had it worse, earlier.

For me, I just needed to have a something from the previous, something familiar, to stabilize me. Right now, I have the feeling that I've made a wrong choice if I were to see it from the school's nonchalant treatment towards my new status. Yet, it's a step moving closer towards achieving my goal of having practical teaching experience so I cannot give up. I must give it time, just like everything. Challenge is inevitable in life.

So lunch was really a grateful time, at least for me. Something familiar. We had tried our best, in the past, to have lunch together. Today, again, we succeeded. I really appreciate that short but much needed lunch date. Thank you, gal. You know who you are.

Celebrate Fickle and Simple

It's really wonderful to be able to lift up your spirits, on your own. Half the battle would have been won!

This morning, again, I had a very tough time pulling myself off my bed. The snooze was really fully utilized, before I actually thought, I did not want to not be able to enjoy daily morning dosage of a cup of coffee. With that thought, I managed to get up and get going.

Yet, I could feel a sort of feeling of dread enveloping over me. I know where that feeling is coming from. As of yesterday, I had officially started my new assignment as a teacher. While I am really in wanting of this assignment, this change has made me feel a little impact in myself.

It's like the first day at a new job, you are very conscious of yourself and want to do your best to adapt as fast as you can, so that you can learn and then contribute. Having said that, although I know most of the teachers, though not personally, I feel like an intrusion to their space. Furthermore, I had already miss being my with colleagues at the front desk, and miss having an access to a personal computer. These changes, I have to bear and learn to cope, I know.

So, this morning, choosing the blouse for the day, my eyes came across my still un-worn black blouse. A thought crossed my mind, why not wear it next week, something new and nice to look forward to.

The dreadful feeling was gone almost instantaneously! Almost immediately, I felt a feeling of happiness coming over me. I could focus on what I have to do, what I want to do for the day, when and how I should go about it! How wonderful to feel this way so early in the morning, instead of being the prisoner of negative vibes.

So, there you are, the reason of this post being here. To celebrate and commemorate, how fickle and simple the human mind can be. Yet, to acknowledge how fickle and simple mindedness are sometimes really necessary and to our advantage. Half my battle for the day has been won. And with just a simple thing such like this. Congratulations to me!

To my ping(squared) never really thought that I would really feel this, but, I miss being with you guys down front. And it's just into the second day! It's really lonely here, although there are many persons here, it's really lonely. Please, hopefully, you guys miss my presence there, too. Take care and wish us all the best!

A post a day, keep the worms away...

A post a day, keep the worms away...

I'm not too sure what that is suppose to mean, but just that I thought it rhymes! Just a thought that ran through my mind, when I was thinking what should I post about today. Incidentally, I have many things in my mind which I would like to say and share and get out of my system, yet, it's getting late and I'm actually feeling quite exhausted today.

This fateful morning, I was really having trouble to push myself up. I really felt very tired. My mind just wanted to leave it all behind, continue my sleep. Yet, somehow, I managed to psyche myself into getting up, get ready, and drive to work. I was not late.

Maybe it was the feeling and thinking what would happen if I was on medical leave today..And from there on, the thoughts on how actually to get sick and seeing a doctor had me thinking of an apple a day, keeps the doctor away. AND from there forth, the opening line was formed in my head. The words just got together..

Yes, I know I'm not making any sense, right now. I'm stopping, allowing myself to go back to bed to get the rest that I am needing. Perhaps, tomorrow morning's post will be of more value...

april fool's love

It's raining love, now. Yes, now, this very morning. I can feel the little loves bouncing at the glass on my window. The glowing red lights from their body glows, making them look like bright, red snow flakes falling down, gracefully from the sky. I get up and walk towards the window.

Enjoying the view, my eyes follow the glowing, falling loves. The ground where they land on is all dotted with little red specks, glowing brightly. Hey, what's that? My eyes open big. The loves falls down to ground to shape a big love shape!! How wonderful!

Slowly, the big love is becoming more prominent, more brightly lit, as more little loves falls to shape it. I can feel myself warming up, a fuzzy feeling taking over me.

A thought cross my mind, and I look up. I see nothing but the dark sky of the early morning, with specks of little loves falling. Wow, them little loves are really coming down from the sky! A miracle! A gift from God, for me! I cannot help but feel love.

It's really raining love today, on this April fool's day of 2009! A wonderfully, lovely morning.