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To meet someone you love, who loves you back, is minuscule.

In the greatest twist of events, I might, god-willing, be tying the knot in exactly 7 months from this date! Right now, I am doing my best-est to clear up whatever doubts and insecurities that I have in my mind, to find the strength and courage to commit to this marriage.

Events have been unfolding one by one of late, albeit in a speedier momentum compared to the normal, whereby, the dating game goes on for at least a year or two before marriage is being contemplated seriously. It's like coming out of a deep, long coma, and you now want to make every second that you are present, counts and memorable. These were things that I had only dared to dream or wished for before this, never allowing myself to actually believe that one day it could come true.

In the true might of the god’s power, I’ve gone for being in a long term relationship to being single in to being booked for a marriage. No, I’m not on drugs nor was I held ransom when I made all these decisions. Instead, with a mind sober and conscious, with full awareness, I made these choices, one by one. Never was I coaxed into making any one of them.

So far, no one in my most immediate and trusted circle even knows what’s going on exactly, apart from knowing that I’m single, again, emerging from an 8-year long relationship. I believe many will question the rationale of my decision if they were to know that I’m planning to tie the knot later this year. Heck, some might even quit being friendly towards me for keeping it under wraps as tightly as I could, as long as I could. I hope not, though.

At the moment, I am trying to distinguish if this is a rebound-thingy that I’m doing, a reaction of sorts towards my new found status, or something which I really am wanting to commit myself to, for the rest of my life. Without being actually proposed to in person yet, I am fully utilizing the luxury of the time in between to contemplate this. I suspect though, deep down, I have already known what the answer is, long, long before.

To meet someone you love, who loves you back, is minuscule. But not impossible.