Today's the first step.

I just did a not so good thing just now. I refused to help someone, even though I'm in the best position to do so. Funnily, I felt nothing when making that decision. Now, after a couple of hours passed, I still did feel anything. No guilt and yet no joy.

Funnily, this person had helped me uncountable times before in the past. She has a good nature, and a good heart. Too good, in fact, always putting ahead the needs of others than hers. That's not my sole testimony but many other mutual friends of us.

She crossed a line, not too long ago. Unknowingly, I think. However, I cannot ignore that factor. Again, she did that out of good intentions, on her side, I believe. I, on the other hand, think that it is a line that she should not even touched, no matter if the sky's falling, or the earth's opening up.

Argument is that, I should be forgiving her, for unknowing cross a line. Unfortunately, even my soft rational side seems make this decision. It is a line she should not touch, lest cross. Not even in good faith. Else, I should at least be honest with her, on her mistake. At least, she would have the chance to know that she crossed a line. But alas, I truly believe, it's a line she or any unrelated ones, should not bother themselves about, in the very first place.

For that, the formerly narrowing distance between us will be reversed. Definitely. It is a conscious decision, and one that I make. Not maybe. And today's the first step.