fDog professionalism..

So where do I stand now? Whose umbrella should I take shelter under? English? Or art? Today that I am confused, is totally understated. I am very angry and confused.

Today, another sample of hasty and very unprofessional management was proven to me. Unfortunately, to me. I was just back into the staffroom, barely started on my marking and was just about to be asked something from my opposite neighbour when The fDog came in. She came straight to me, in such jittery and broken manner, told me that Ms Principal requested that I join along the Art&Crafts Club, since I am teaching Art. I stared at her, and sent her a big 'Huh?!' to her face. She repeated herself, distinctly I could feel her stressing when she said Ms Principal.

I knew I was stunted, pissed, angry, very angry and my face was showing. I just gave a simple, 'K', asked her where it was held, and then just ignored her. I continued chatting a little with the teacher, slowly arranged my books before deciding to go to the studio. Yes, I was actually debating whether to go or not to go. In the end, I went. I am but a teacher by choice.

It is not that I am reluctant to go, but I think that all these should be inform beforehand. As a manager, you manage, and manage well. What kind of management is this if I only have 1.5 rest periods, to do marking, while the rest is filled with classes and duties, regardless if I am the main teacher or not? Furthermore, you cannot justify that way, when there is another art teacher as well. Why is she in the club then?

I do not want to compare in such sense, so please do not give unreasonable reasons. If you need me to be there, just say so. I am not a kid, or a fresh player in the working industry. As much tact as you can have, if you are not professional in conduct or execution, you will still fail to my garner support and respect. In fact, it might just backfire on you and what you have gathered so far, will slowly be peeled away. I cannot, just cannot, be another fDog!

Tomorrow I am going to have another full day with just 2 periods free, which of course, there will be markings to do. In other words, there's no free period at all, not even free to plan and prepare my lessons! Am I suppose to be so boxed down with so much duties? Do you think that I can function better without sometime to plan out my lessons? A teacher has to plan and manage, too!

I am beginning to hate this school and that's bad.

Which side of the coin?

Do I want to see the school close? I had given that thought some weight, but in the end, I still could not make up my mind.

While I would be very happy to get the directive from the ministry to have our school shut down for a week, that could only mean one thing. Quarantine!! And that meant, there is at least a person from my school has been infected by the virus, and has exposed his or herself to us. In other words, no traveling can be done if that is declared. Neither going out nor going home. I am stuck here, cracking the head to find entertainment to amuse myself.

On the other hand, it's good to have the extra one week of so-called rest. I could catch up planning for my suddenly thrust upon art lessons. I get ready some planning for about 4 weeks worth of lessons. Also, I would be able to recover myself from the current exhausting state that I am. Yet, on the other 'other' hand, which probably points back to the original hand, most likely we would have to replace all the classes which we miss, which could only mean, more exhaustion later.

Argghh.. weighing the pros and cons. See, do you understand why I said that I just could not make up my mind? I stand to gain from either sides of the flip of the coin. And I stand to loose from either sides of the flip of the coin, just as easily. The question now is which one would I prefer before channeling my energy there!

EXhaustion

The new semester started last week, amidst all the hype of the latest pandemic. Panic button has not been pressed by the Education Ministry yet, but mine has! Right from the moment I was 'casually' informed by the Ms HR, who was 'casually' busy on the photocopier, the button was stuck in that mode!

Panic attack! I was in a state of panic. Yours truly was practically dazing the day, just trying to get through. It did not help that when she gave that little bang on my head, it was the first day of school and I had just brought back my body to this part of the earth. Undoubtedly, the soul, mind, and heart are definitely still over there. The alarm sounded when Ms Principal later announce, (no) but it's for the whole level! I was dumbstrucked! What??!! Five classes? Alas, nothing came out of me. Too stunt!

A week into it, I am exhausted. Very much exhausted. I have packed days. Although my schedule does not really show it's pack, but my have tons of book markings to do. I am taking 2 english classes for book marking, on top of the five art classes. It's exhausting. I am exhausted.

I would say that for the past six days being in school, slowly, I am bringing back the mind to work. But now the body is being stretched. I am not sure how long, how thin, how far it can be stretch, and am really afraid that it would snapped. It's just too taxing.

Today, I would have journals from 2 classes to review and definitely new incomings of books to mark. Of course, on top of that, I will have to prepare for my art lessons. There are colour papers to be cut and drawing papers to be torn out of their drawing books. I am so not looking forward...to exhaustion!